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Post by Sassy on Sept 21, 2014 18:22:48 GMT -8
You're not sounding insincere at all, my dear ... I hope the antibiotics work for him. {{{Hugs}}}
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Post by Teddybear8 on Sept 21, 2014 23:23:49 GMT -8
You're not sounding insincere at all, my dear ... I hope the antibiotics work for him. {{{Hugs}}} Agreed (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Chani)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
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Post by Former Member on Sept 22, 2014 0:46:58 GMT -8
Thanks, you two.
I've been up all night doing macrame to keep myself busy. Justine and I had a huge heart-to-heart before she went to bed and it made me feel just a tad better, but I still can't sleep with the last news I heard being somewhat grim. I don't know how she does it. She's made of tougher stuff than me, that's for sure! I still haven't ate anything except a cup of yogurt since yesterday morning. Er, the morning before yesterday*, since it's 3:40 AM here now. I don't really feel hungry, but I'm getting light-headed so I suppose I'll have another cup of yogurt before I return to my bracelet-making.
I've also reached a moral crossroads. The articles say that they were sleeping when it happened, but I was on the phone with James so I know that's not true. I'm sure that Michael's family believed he was sleeping and went out peacefully in his sleep, but I know different. I've kept it between myself, Justine, and a couple of James's friends because I don't want to worsen their suffering, but I'm not sure I'm doing the right thing. It's always been in my nature to deliver brutal honesty where needed, but I've never bore the burden of honesty quite this brutal before. :\
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Post by Teddybear8 on Sept 22, 2014 0:55:35 GMT -8
Chani, I know it's hard, especially in a situation like this...but try to eat some more if you can, you need to keep your strength up somehow, if you continue like that it's just gonna be harder to deal with ... good that you're working on that bracelet making, it's good distraction Hang in there Chani and keep talking to us, we'll drag you through this difficult time
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Post by mmhmm on Sept 22, 2014 1:00:34 GMT -8
There's really nothing to be gained, Chani, by sharing the knowledge that the two men weren't sleeping. That won't help anyone, and it won't change anything. The only thing it might do is cause unnecessary pain. I'd just keep that one to myself, if I were you.
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Post by Former Member on Sept 22, 2014 5:31:37 GMT -8
I ate some yogurt this morning. It's the only thing I'm able to keep down right now, so it'll have to do. I actually don't even feel hungry, to be totally honest.
I don't think I will tell them. I'll wait for James to wake up and ask him about it. He knows Michael's family better than I do and can make an informed decision. It feels wrong, but it would feel even worse telling them about it just to make their mourning rougher. I don't think I'd ever be able to forgive myself for causing them more pain than they're already going through.
I'm making my little one her favorite breakfast: French toast and sliced bananas with cinnamon sprinkled on them. A friend said today that she feels sorry for me because I have to worry about taking care of my kid on top of all this stress, but she's actually a life-saver. I have to act tough when she's around and it does me a lot of good not being all alone in this house. I don't know what I'm going to do once she's off at school. Hopefully I'll be able to sleep.
Thanks for all the advice, everyone. It really helps. I feel like I've completely lost my ability to make a decision.
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Post by Teddybear8 on Sept 22, 2014 5:36:50 GMT -8
I can imagine very well that you feel like you lost your ability to make decisions. No wonder with everything going on. Try to prioritize and take one step at a time and yea well...at least you're getting something in with that yoghurt ... try to see if you can eat something that you really like, like a treat or something, i've done that at times when eating was hard..
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Post by Former Member on Sept 22, 2014 7:16:11 GMT -8
I can't eat any complicated foods right now or they'll just come right back up, not to be gross or anything. D: My stomach gurgles and throws a tantrum even eating yogurt. I'll try getting in some meat today before my jog regardless. (Bacon?) I took my little one to school today in her fancy wagon (two-seater with cup holders, stickers all over, and nice shocks, oh yeah!) so I'll be jogging to go pick her up. I don't think I'll take the wagon again, though, because when I showed up with her all her classmates were asking for rides home after school. xD Kids, man.
Now I'm home alone and don't know what to do with myself. I don't think I could sleep if I tried. Justine still hasn't given me anymore news on James. I've already cleaned the house spotless and all the chores are caught up. My wrists are sore from macrame, so won't be doing anymore of that for a little bit. I might just break down for a bit while the little one's gone, but I'd rather keep myself distracted if I can.
I just hate waiting. I hate checking Facebook every five minutes and cringing internally every time the phone rings and having this constant knot in my stomach.
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Post by Søren on Sept 22, 2014 7:23:30 GMT -8
Its good your trying to eat something, have you tried eating toast? dry food should be easier to keep down then yoghurt. *hugs*
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Post by Teddybear8 on Sept 22, 2014 9:14:44 GMT -8
Chani, you like music ? Enough on youtube to keep you distracted If you do try some meat later, well bacon is an excellent choice imo cos 1. it's my favorite meat lol and 2. it has often worked for me when i had a hard time eating...its different for everyone of course though... and yep, toast and crackers usually are pretty easy to get in...chicken soup is another one...I know the waiting is nervewrecking. Keep talking to us and keep trying to distract yourself
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Post by Former Member on Sept 22, 2014 13:16:07 GMT -8
I haven't tried toast, but the yogurt's staying down alright and it's tastier. I tried bacon before my jog and it upset my stomach really bad, probably because it's greasy and too difficult to digest. I'm back to yogurt! We're almost out of the strawberry banana kind, which is my favorite. ;~;
James's temperature is down, but he's still having difficulty breathing. They're doing cultures (or a culture? or whatever) to determine what caused the infection. Hopefully that'll give them some clues on fixing his breathing issues.
EDIT: They found James's cat, Panthra, and buried her this morning. Hopefully that will give him a little peace of mind.
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Post by Teddybear8 on Sept 22, 2014 17:36:05 GMT -8
Ah shame the bacon didnt stay down...yep could have been the grease, sorry i reccomended it, it was just that it did work for me...as long as you keep at least eating the yoghurt it's at least something Sending positive thoughts that the cultures will help to find the clues needed
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Post by Former Member on Sept 22, 2014 21:22:22 GMT -8
James is still relying heavily on his ventilator, but the nurses have said that's normal. I guess our lungs get lazy when they realize something else is there to do all the work for them. They said weening him off of the ventilator should be an easy matter once he's ready for it. They're hoping he'll be able to wake up on Monday, but they're keeping him sedated for now. This is good news and I cannot express in words how much it does for me to hear it! I was able to eat a sandwich and enjoy a cup of hot tea.
Also, James's recovery fund had a huge increase over the last day. Dunkin' Donuts (James's workplace) alone donated $1,000. He's been a really good employee for them for years; he never turns down extra hours and takes shifts for people all the time. I have no idea what it's going to cost to replace his belongings and don't even want to think about what his medical bills are going to look like after all of this, but it's so nice to see him getting that much support. My eyes are watering from the kindness of people.
Justine is apparently going to hold a benefit for him next month as well. I guess I've found something to do with all this macrame junk I've been making.
I'm so happy right now. We're not out of the woods yet, but I think I might actually be able to sleep for five or six hours tonight before I have to get my little one up.
*hugs everyone*
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Post by moonbeam on Sept 23, 2014 2:14:17 GMT -8
Great news, Chani!
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